The reason I have put those two gigantic posts up is because they do hold relevance to the Avengers RP group. The people in question have been intimately involved with this group during it’s prime and I felt it was necessary to warn those who still follow this group despite it’s inactivity, and grew close to the story and it’s people.
The events which transpired are all true.
A girl who went by the name of Leah joined us as Maria Hill. She wormed her way into our hearts and our open arms and found a place among our rp family. She was one of the first people to join the group and thus we were saddened when due to some conflict with another character decided to leave.
Almost immediately afterward I was informed by the co-mod of this group that Leah would be joining as Pepper but under the alias of Ellie to avoid conflict. I consented. Figuring, she just really wanted to be part of this group and didn’t want to deal with the aforementioned conflict.
Not too long afterward we also received an application for an OC SHIELD agent, who went by the name of Adam. I was told by Adam that he was Leah’s boyfriend. I was then informed that Adam was actually Ellie’s boyfriend, and was shocked to find that Ellie was an actual person. Or so I thought she was an actual person, but because of that little confusion I was a little…confused to say the least about the whole situation, but since I wasn’t well informed I decided not to put too much stock into it all.
So, to recap. Leah had joined the group using her friend’s name of Ellie, to join as Pepper Potts. Adam, who was Ellie’s boyfriend/husband thing, joined as an OC named Charles Hannigan. Later on, Leah rejoined the group as Maria and Ellie reclaimed her spot as Pepper Potts and things were square.
Then Leah experienced a great tragedy. Her little sister had died by some accident, at the time I did not know and no one would tell me. Leah was distraught and reacted horribly to it all. She was rarely on and when she was she had terrible mood swings and was difficult to console.
In the meantime, Ellie was rping strongly as Pepper and formed a close friendship with our at the time Clint, by the name of Meagn in real life.
Adam, who played Charles Hannigan, however, had informed us that he would eventually leave the group as he was a Marine and would be shipping out in February, while we were sad to see him go, it was for a just cause and so we harbored no hard feelings.
To make a long story slightly less longer, our group had to disband due to lack of inactivity and personal reasons, and I did not remain in touch with Leah or Ellie, but Emily ( who played as Tony Stark) and Meagn had continued to converse with them, respectively.
It was last night I found out for certain that Leah had lied about many things. She lied about who she was. She lied about her job. Claiming to work at Disney World, when in actuality she never did. She lied about having a degree in Linguistics, when in actuality she never graduated from college. But most importantly of all, she had been pretending to be Ellie for over a year. She created a fake person and lived that life on the internet, forcing her way into Meagn’s life and her heart, making her go through so many emotions by making her believe that Ellie was dying.
Ellie was never real.
Adam was never real.
They were all Leah.
But in a way, none of them were Leah because the person we came to know as Leah, wasn’t real.
We were all of us deceived.
We will not forgive and we will not forget. In your deceptiveness you have banded us together and we will not allow you to force your falsities onto another.
How dare you, “Leah.” How dare you manipulate and lie to all of us. How dare you try to put others on your side when you know deep in your heart that what you did was wrong. How dare you speak ill of someone who for years stood by you, comforted you when you were “dying.” How dare you.
No doubt you guys have seen the post on goddammitrussia, Ellie/Leah/Elle’s former blog, to which I now hold the name to. I will be reblogging this post to that blog also.
Everyone who has come into contact with Ellie/Leah has had different stories told to them about Ellie/Leah, so I’ll tell you mine.
We were all lied to.
To start: Leah/Ellie posed mainly as two different people, Leah and Ellie, when she was rping with me. I will refer to Leah as Leah and Ellie as Ellie, as they were two different people to me. She later posed as a man named Adam, Ellie’s husband.
This was going to be a long ass essay but I decided that brief was best.
This is me. Any other pictures I’ve used, including all pictures of myself, siblings, or children are not me and have been pulled from outside sources.
This is Owen, my youngest son. He was born on June 25th, 2011.
This is Owen and Carter together. Carter is my oldest and he was born on October 29th, 2008. He doesn’t really like having his picture taken.
I live in Orlando, Florida and have lived here my entire life. I was born here. My parents divorced when I was in second grade and are both still living.
This is my brother Eli and some random girl. All of his pictures have girls in them. He’s 21.
I dropped out of college when I got pregnant with Carter and haven’t been back. I have no degrees, let alone one in linguistics.
I have one cat, a Russian Blue named Noah.
There’s a lot more but I wanted to get this out there because I told someone I would. I can be reached at mariahillofshield on Skype or through my Facebook.
Thank you to everyone that has been kind to me. I hope that we can work through this, but if we can’t, I understand.
For further explanation on why this was posted.
I joined an Avengers RP sometime last year and made a friend in a girl named Leah. She played Maria Hill and we had an excellent time. Due to some writing changes, I started writing with a second girl named Ellie Chzwalicz.
About a month into writing, Leah’s little sister choked on a gummi bear and died. I panicked. I called everyone I knew in the RP and tried to garner support for her in the dark times. I called her at her house and spoke to a sobbing Leah who thanked me and hung up.
I never heard from Leah again.
Just after January, I started writing a complex story with the previously mentioned Ellie. It was fantastic and I enjoyed writing. However, some of her phrasing struck me as odd because I’d only ever seen it before in one other person: Leah.
I asked Ellie if she was Leah and she denied it.
Ellie and I became close. I worked with her through a severe depression and suicidal thoughts. I learned of her Crohn’s disease and that she had a chronic terminal illness. I was stunned, but she had a husband and was pregnant with twins. I did what I could to keep her distracted and motivated through a dark time in her life. She lost one twin, then another to stillbirth. I was heartbroken for her.
About this time her husband left her. He was violent and incredibly selfish. I had spoken to him several times before this point in their relationship and he’d actually been introduced as a character in the same Avengers RP: Charles Hannigan.
Meanwhile, Ellie’s condition worsened. I spoke via email with her doctors. Chatted with some of her colleagues on Skype and had a memorable phone call with her sister Odina “Odi” when Ellie’s BP tanked and she had to be rushed into surgery. She made a recovery and continued to hold steady. She’s been in hospitals in Providence RI, Maryland [Johns Hopkins], NYC [Mt Sinai], Portland, and finally St. Louis.
Finally, around Christmas we got the news that she’d gone septic and had days to live. Tearful goodbyes all around.
Except she didn’t die in the normal time frame of someone who’s gone septic. After doing more research after the fact, the hospitals usually medically induce comas for septic patients to keep them from screaming themselves to death due to pain. During all of this Ellie was perfectly able to type and converse easily.
I started wondering what was going on and questioning the validity of facts.
Here’s what I came up with through the course of the Ellie/Leah rabbit hole.
This? This is Leah as she was presented to me and our RP group.
She was a sweet girl who worked at Disney and had two boys and an abusive husband. She’s the one who’s little sister died and mother disowned her.
Except, this girl is not Leah. I found her instagram:
The little girl in the bottom right is the sister who died. I was both relieved to know it wasn’t true and appalled that someone would lie about a death that way.
Now, to further explain, Ellie and I had planned to move to Portland Oregon together and room up. I trusted her.
This is Ellie as she showed herself to me:
This is her husband:
The tall one on the right in green is Adam Gubnitskaia. He’s a marine. He and Ellie had been trying to have children. She had miscarried several times. He had horrible PTSD and left her for another man.
This is a picture he sent me of their backyard one snowy day:
This is the actual post with said picture:
Notice the picture on the right. Same picture.
This is his daughter who his ex had moved to Montana, Kelsey:
This is the same picture as a listing for birracial children:
Ellie had a respite in her illness and moved to portland. She had two friends there, Sam and Micah who she worked with at Lockheed Martin. Sam’s mother made a quilt for the house.me: I’m probably getting some quilts againI love quilts and all the colorsEllie: Sam’s mom made us a quilt for the couch.2:58 PM me: I swear to god everyone is perfect
This is the picture Ellie sent me:
This is that same quilt:
She had a piano room because she owned a piano. This is the picture she sent me:
This is the piano room:
She posted a picture of her desk at Lockheed to Tumblr:
she’s don smith.
This is her post as she left the hospital for the first time in portland to go home. It has nine pictures total:
upper left is her backyard, top middle is her getting starbucks on the way home, top right is her newly stocked fridge, middle left is Sam Correge’s brother picking her up, middle is a view on her drive of portland, middle right is a picture of the road while driving to the house, a picture passing the college campus, the sunrise as she left the hospital and finally her feet standing on her own yard for the first time.
[10/13/2012 8:33:48 AM] Ellie Lou: I’m home!!!!
[10/13/2012 8:34:43 AM] Ellie Lou: I’m going to the grocery store when it opens in twenty five minutes and then to Target to stock up, but I should be home before you wake up. I have to take it easy for pretty much the next week, but I’m fucking h o m e.
[10/13/2012 8:35:04 AM] Ellie Lou: It’s 6:34 PST and I. am. home.
[10/13/2012 8:35:07 AM] Ellie Lou: I’ll see you when you wake up.
[10/13/2012 8:35:10 AM] Ellie Lou: I love you.
[10/13/2012 8:35:14 AM] Ellie Lou: Thank you for getting me here.
[10/13/2012 10:22:26 AM] Meagn: [flops]
[10/13/2012 10:28:08 AM] Ellie Lou: I am home!
[10/13/2012 10:28:33 AM] Ellie Lou: I went to the store and Target and Starbucks and took pictures and I am uploading them now and I love you!
[10/13/2012 10:29:08 AM] Meagn: [long and glorious slow clapping of happy]
[10/13/2012 10:29:26 AM] Ellie Lou: I got my hair did too.
[10/13/2012 10:29:30 AM] Ellie Lou: I had a busy fucking morning, man.
[10/13/2012 10:29:37 AM] Meagn: hese are all good things
[10/13/2012 10:29:45 AM] Ellie Lou: Yes, they really are.
[10/13/2012 10:29:46 AM] Meagn: god I need a haircut
[10/13/2012 10:29:49 AM] Meagn: [eyes self]
[10/13/2012 10:29:50 AM] Meagn: one day
[10/13/2012 10:30:27 AM] Ellie Lou: I am pretttty much on bedrest.
[10/13/2012 10:30:29 AM] Ellie Lou: But that’s okay.
[10/13/2012 10:31:24 AM] Meagn: hee
[10/13/2012 10:31:26 AM] Meagn: good
[10/13/2012 10:31:35 AM] Meagn: it’s fucking gorgeous outside today
[10/13/2012 10:31:50 AM] Ellie Lou: [is outside too]
[10/13/2012 10:35:04 AM] Ellie Lou: [posts all the pictures]
[10/13/2012 10:40:55 AM] Ellie Lou: PUBLISHED JUST FOR YOUUUUU.
So here, for those still following along:
notice she took the time to find a starbucks cup labelled Ellie.
Some of you may recognize her sister Odi in the second picture. This is a facebook for a singer in Orlando.
If you’ve been talking to Ellie/Leah for awhile, you know she’s a cosplayer and loves Lady Deadpool. This is her at the San Diego Comic Con.
Except this cosplay was for dragon con.
Here is a picture of her nurse she sent me as a text:
actually someone’s family member fucking around:
Here’s the text of her heartrate monitor. You can see I was excited because it was better than it had ever been:
however, a quick search later and she’s in The Middle East:
This is her Doctor, Kyle Tandon:
Here’s the email I wrote him and he wrote to me explaining Ellie’s condition:
Thank you. It’s a lot to digest and I’m still trying to wrap my head around all of it. I know that you have done everything you could and I feel like you should know that both Ellie and myself have nothing but praise for the care you have given her. I’m incredibly grateful that she’s had someone in the medical community to fight for her.I’ve got some more questions for you. I don’t actually know what to do with some of the information because it seems like it would be conflicting to my non medical knowledge. She’s been having a constant nose bleed today, they’ve got her on blood thinners and ringers, and are talking about dosing her with Dilaudid [sp?] to help her sleep. From what I have been able to pick up, it puts her in like a mini coma and that seems like it would be bad to do when they can’t get her bleeding under control.I keep checking in with her like you suggested when I can and try to keep her distracted but her pain levels are really intense. The last time I saw her this out of it she was having the TIA’s and seizures.I’m really not comfortable with what’s going on there in Portland. I don’t like that she’s in quarantine and I understand it’s her viral load, but nothing seems to be bringing that down. I’m starting to really wonder what the timeline we’re looking at is here and I really really really hate that I find myself starting to think negatively about her chances of getting out of CICU. I just don’t know what sort of outcome I need to be hoping and pushing for because goodbye doesn’t really… I don’t.Ugh, I’m sorry. I just need to know how long you think, reasonably, I have. If I should be planning for the worst? What happens if she does pass? Her family is pretty much just- they’re assholes. I can’t imagine them taking any kind of care for her wishes. Is this something I need to start discussing with her?Wow, I have all the questions and I feel terrible to just lay this out on you, I just want her to be okay and I know that’s really not going to happen but I’m so sick of her just being in constant pain.
Hi Meagn,I’m going to assume since you’ve signed your emails with your first name that it’s okay to address you with such. Let me know if I’m wrong.Here’s a kind of crash course in what all of the viral load and blood medication nomenclature means. When your body gets an infection, you start throwing viral antibodies that show up in your blood work coupled with your white cells. The average person has a resting viral load of about ten per cell, or Tp/C. Ellie’s right now, with the staph, is at about fifty thousand per cell, or F-tp/C. That makes her highly, highly contagious for anybody with a normal resting viral load and the CDC has ordered that, to prevent the spread of staph within the hospital community, that any patient with the same considerations that she has be quarantined.Her being on blood thinners is necessary for her kidneys or she would be in renal failure and her being on Ringers is necessary with the GSMA or she would be in a complete systems failure. The two medications are contradicted by the dilaudid because the dilaudid is a blood thinner as well, so her blood pressure is astronomically high right now. End of life care is very rarely about getting better and almost always about comfort, so when the time comes, they will take her off the blood thinners and the Ringers and focus purely on pain management.The constant nosebleed isn’t a good sign because it means that her capillaries are weakening and starting to rupture, which could and will cause pneumonia when her lungs fill with blood. That said, they’ll put her under constant watch if she’s sedated. She will more than likely start having seizures and tachycardic episodes when her heart stresses out from trying to pump water-thin blood.I can’t give you a timeline. I don’t know what kind of pain she’s in because I haven’t heard her voice, but I do know that if she’s saying she’s in pain, it’s ten time worse than she’s saying. I feel completely helpless and completely useless. I know that she has strict instructions to not prolong her life and I know that when the time comes, she’ll be the one calling the shots. The best guess I can give you is three to six weeks, maybe more if they can get her infection under control, but that is unlikely now.I think that you should discuss what she wants to do with her life. You should discuss what she would have liked to have done and don’t shy away from asking the questions you have. I try really hard to not speak ill of anybody’s family but I’m not sorry hers is on the other side of the country. I’ve been practicing medicine for six years now. She was the first patient that walked into my office on the first day of my practice and it’s been an honor.If you need anything or have any other questions, I’m available at all hours.Sincerely,KyleTo be clear.
Kyle Tandon does not exist. Adam Gubnitskaia does not exist. Ellie did not lose twins. She did not have a still birth. Odi, Liam, Raechel her brothers and sisters she posts conversational chats about do not exist.
Sam Correge does not exist.Esther who’s father passed away while we were RPing for coffee verse does not exist.Ellie Chzwalicz, the person who I’d been talking to, laughing with, and generally enjoying does not exist. SHE IS NOT DYING. She is not having seizures.She did however tell me she was. I would stay up late to calm her nerves before surgeries. We would write stories to keep her occupied and keep her mind off of the intense and excruciating pain she was in.
[11/24/2012 8:20:24 PM] Elle Belle: Ow ow ow fucking ow.
[11/24/2012 8:20:28 PM] Elle Belle: I hate this stupid IV.
[11/24/2012 8:21:11 PM] Meagn: I’m sorry dude
[11/24/2012 8:21:18 PM] Meagn: how long until they can move it back
[11/24/2012 8:21:30 PM] Elle Belle: They can’t, probably. My veins in my arms are blown.
[11/24/2012 8:22:05 PM] Meagn: [grumbles]
[11/24/2012 8:22:16 PM] Elle Belle: Same.
[11/24/2012 8:22:30 PM] Meagn: how’re you haning in emotionally?
[11/24/2012 8:23:12 PM] Elle Belle: I’ve only been awake for four hours, so so far, I’m okay. The dilaudid definitely starts you in the red, but I’m trying to pull out of it.
[11/24/2012 8:23:18 PM] Elle Belle: [curls around]
[11/24/2012 8:23:39 PM] Meagn: are they going to keep giving you that to help you sleep?
[11/24/2012 8:23:53 PM] Elle Belle: I hope not.
[11/24/2012 8:24:06 PM] Elle Belle: I don’t want to remain at this level of pain to require it.
[11/24/2012 8:24:21 PM] Elle Belle: My body hurts so bad that my teeth hurt and I can feel my hair growing.
[11/24/2012 8:26:00 PM] Meagn: are they expecting it to stay at that level?
[11/24/2012 8:26:13 PM] Elle Belle: Likely.
[11/24/2012 8:27:05 PM] Meagn: have they talked about your pain management or are they just still pushing morphine?
[11/24/2012 8:27:41 PM] Elle Belle: They can do a mix of morphine and Nubane. Tandy told me it’s a bad idea to go on straight Nubane because it will take away my coherency.
[11/24/2012 8:28:06 PM] Elle Belle: But other than that, it’s either deal with the pain or basically be so doped up, I’m not functioning.
[11/24/2012 8:28:14 PM] Elle Belle: And once I get to that point, I’m not coming back.
[11/24/2012 8:28:23 PM] Elle Belle: But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t SUCK.
[11/24/2012 8:28:29 PM] Meagn: oh yeah
[11/24/2012 8:28:31 PM] Meagn: okay
[11/24/2012 8:29:02 PM] Meagn: do we have any new information or still running on the previous?
[11/24/2012 8:29:10 PM] Elle Belle: Nothing new today.
[11/24/2012 8:29:23 PM] Elle Belle: Tandy said he’d let you know.
[11/24/2012 8:29:37 PM] Meagn: okay
[11/24/2012 8:29:43 PM] Meagn: I really appreciate that
[11/24/2012 8:30:47 PM] Elle Belle: He said he’s glad to have someone to tell it to because he was getting really tired of my family’s crud.
[11/24/2012 8:30:50 PM] Elle Belle: His words.
[11/24/2012 8:31:03 PM] Meagn: I’m gettin’ real tired of your shit
[11/24/2012 8:31:09 PM] Meagn: *family’s
[11/24/2012 8:31:12 PM] Meagn: wow fingers
[11/24/2012 8:31:28 PM] Meagn: they were so excited to say that it skipped a whole word
[11/24/2012 8:31:39 PM] Elle Belle: I was like [squints] I’M SORRY, I’LL DIE MORE ELEGANTLY.
[11/24/2012 8:32:01 PM] Meagn: [snort]
[11/24/2012 8:32:05 PM] Meagn: please don’t do that
[11/24/2012 8:32:31 PM] Meagn: just do not appreciate your family being asshats is allBut in the end?This is the exchange that hurts the most.
[12/7/2012 8:00:26 PM] Elle Belle: I was telling my nurse today about how I used to pretend to be other people.
[12/7/2012 8:00:33 PM] Elle Belle: I had, at one point, eighteen different faces.
[12/7/2012 8:00:46 PM] Elle Belle: In twenty four years, I’ve never liked myself to be myself.
[12/7/2012 8:00:58 PM] Meagn: out of all the yous I’ve met
[12/7/2012 8:01:02 PM] Meagn: you’ve been my favorite
[12/7/2012 8:01:29 PM] Elle Belle: I told her that I never understood why people pretended to be sick.
[12/7/2012 8:01:45 PM] Elle Belle: Because you can always pick out someone who’s faking dying.
[12/7/2012 8:01:51 PM] Elle Belle: Not because they get their medical terms wrong.
[12/7/2012 8:01:57 PM] Elle Belle: But because they get their humility wrong.
[12/7/2012 8:02:12 PM] Elle Belle: Which is not me calling myself humble by any stretch of the imagination.
[12/7/2012 8:02:29 PM] Meagn: [refrains from snorting]
[12/7/2012 8:02:51 PM] Elle Belle: I met a girl online who faked dying from cancer for a year.
[12/7/2012 8:02:55 PM] Elle Belle: Her mother was in on it.
[12/7/2012 8:03:01 PM] Elle Belle: They bought medical supplies to take pictures with.
[12/7/2012 8:03:17 PM] Elle Belle: And in the “end,” she was talking about how all she wanted to do was go to Paris and see Europe.
[12/7/2012 8:03:26 PM] Elle Belle: And that was when I was like, wait a second.
[12/7/2012 8:03:34 PM] Elle Belle: All I want to do is brush my own teeth.
[12/7/2012 8:04:03 PM] Meagn: I’ll never forget shaving your legs man
[12/7/2012 8:04:15 PM] Elle Belle: Best day of my life.
[12/7/2012 8:04:30 PM] Elle Belle: And it sounds so stupid.
[12/7/2012 8:04:35 PM] Elle Belle: But the things I want to do this week?
[12/7/2012 8:04:41 PM] Elle Belle: I want to drink out of a cup without a straw.
[12/7/2012 8:04:46 PM] Elle Belle: I want to bathe myself.
[12/7/2012 8:04:53 PM] Elle Belle: I want to sit upright.
[12/7/2012 8:05:00 PM] Elle Belle: Not on my side lying down.
[12/7/2012 8:05:20 PM] Elle Belle: I want to catch my breath long enough to make my phonecalls.
[12/7/2012 8:05:38 PM] Elle Belle: I want to give you whatever material you need from me to finish our story without my input.
[12/7/2012 8:05:49 PM] Elle Belle: I want to talk to Raechel and tell her I forgive her.
[12/7/2012 8:05:56 PM] Elle Belle: I want to hear my nephews and nieces.
[12/7/2012 8:06:07 PM] Elle Belle: And I want my dad to tell me that he’s not disappointed in me.
[12/7/2012 8:07:02 PM] Meagn: then write it out
[12/7/2012 8:07:08 PM] Meagn: and I’ll tell raechel
[12/7/2012 8:07:21 PM] Meagn: I’ll do whatever you don’t get the chance to do
[12/7/2012 8:07:25 PM] Meagn: it’s the least I can do
[12/7/2012 8:07:39 PM] Meagn: tell me how you’d want the story to go if it was up to you
[12/7/2012 8:07:58 PM] Elle Belle: It’s not up to me.
[12/7/2012 8:08:01 PM] Elle Belle: Doesn’t work that way.
[12/7/2012 8:08:04 PM] Elle Belle: I don’t want that story.
[12/7/2012 8:08:18 PM] Meagn: then tell me what you think
[12/7/2012 8:08:27 PM] Meagn: and I’ll take that into acocunt when I write it
[12/7/2012 8:08:50 PM] Meagn: but the rest?
[12/7/2012 8:08:54 PM] Meagn: messages
[12/7/2012 8:08:57 PM] Meagn: things like that
[12/7/2012 8:08:59 PM] Meagn: I can do
[12/7/2012 8:09:01 PM] Meagn: it’s something
[12/7/2012 8:09:07 PM] Meagn: makes me feel less useless
[12/7/2012 8:09:13 PM] Elle Belle: You’re not useless.
[12/7/2012 8:09:18 PM] Elle Belle: You carried me this far.
[12/7/2012 8:09:34 PM] Meagn: told you I’d carry you as far as it tookI have been lied to. I have been manipulated. I have been… violated.I just don’t want anyone to have any doubts. Because I don’t.I asked her to publicly come clean about what she did to me. She posted pictures. I figured you’d need the whole story.There’s more. I know I’ve left things out. If you have questions, feel free to message me.What she’s displaying is a serious problem also known as Munchausen by Internet and requires treatment, not sympathy.
I apologize, dear anonymous, firstly that it took me a while to respond to this message (tumblr doesn’t like to notice me and I don’t check my inbox unless I’m expecting something), and secondly that we are on hiatus.
I do hope to reopen eventually, with or without my co-mod, of course I’ll have to consult with her about that. Stay tuned if you’d like~!
Co-mod: wow scuse you other mod
Mod(edit): Wow that was fast.
Just posting this again because I keep getting sent questions and applications. This group is closed indefinitely. No applications will be accepted or looked at.
Our RP is on hiatus!
Emily (Tony Stark): A lot of people have left the group because they’re super busy, so I called a hiatus. Reblog this post or send a message about how busy you are (until about when you’ll be available) and if you want to continue :]
Depends on what character, really.
Please read the rules before applying. To apply, go to submit a post. If you have any questions, go to the ask. Once accepted, be sure to follow your fellow Avengers! We do accept OC’s, and the occasional DC character, though you have to suggest those we don’t have a list.